I haven't had much to add here because too many variables made my thoughts confused. Now I have a course, a path to follow. This is a beginning in a sense of something new for me.
Over the past six months I've been dealing with health issues. I'm starting a treatment plan today.  I'm apprehensive, and hopeful.  My diagnosis was elusive.  Lots of tests but each came back saying I was healthy.  I kept feeling like I could get beyond my symptoms, until I couldn't. Finally a test showed a direction to investigate and anyhow here I am.  I need to get beyond the physical limits I'm dealing with. Also being frustrated by not falling into a standard category.  I felt like I was being pushed to communicate with people I didn't want to talk to.  As if somewhere there are written rules or at least that was how I was being approached.  I dodged as much as I could, only to be presented with more.  I'm expected to understand unwritten rules?  Okay, if I have nothing nice to say, it's best to say nothing.

It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96