Saturday, June 17, 2017

Those dreams of yours

Those dreams of yours where you start to think, things can be a certain way. Those dreams that never get too far from that pillow. The places you go. That life you live. The way you act when you aren't dreaming. Creates that world you live in. Those dreams of yours seep, but only when you're sleeping. Those dreams of yore. Those dreams of yours stay silent when you sing. You'd never run to catch me. You'd never call my number. You'd never write love letters. That is what I see. You act like you would, but we both know the truth. Looks like you're successful to me.

It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

Friday, June 2, 2017

What's important

Today I was frustrated with a person. At least that is what I thought. I was going to tell another person about my frustration. After stating I had something to tell, I said "No I can't say it, this is gossip, this is evil." I still continued to feel that person was the problem. Later in the day I happened to meet a friend I hadn't spoke with in a long while. During our conversation we each shared current life experiences. In our talk I realized I was being shown how convenient it is to blame a difficult issue on a person. It causes more confusion. Understanding how it is a habit to resolve conflict by blame brings the problem into the proper reference. It is not a mystical power controlled by other people. An honest assessment can shift a conflict into a resolution. I didn't try to resolve anything with the person. I did prevent myself from spreading hate filled gossip and that is what was most important. The rest I have no control over.

It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

The sound a bell makes

What makes the bell. Is it the outer casing, or is it the clapper?

It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

Sunday, March 12, 2017

asking to feel regret during Lent

Seeing myself without a mirror. I can see the cruel person I can become. Instances I react to. Why I feel it is justified is selfish. Am I blind to a better solution. I destroy myself either way. To be Christ like we are called to service. Why does it make me feel hollow, empty. It isn't just the wrong choice which brings regret. I think regret is always available. Regret is the least talked about emotion. Regret is difficult to explore.

It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

Saturday, March 4, 2017

oppression

Petrichor, Crepuscular ray.  Terms invented to describe phenomenon that aren't inventions.

It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

Thursday, March 2, 2017

Knock knock.

The thing about becoming a hermit. Some of the things you find enjoyable cease to exist while we are away. They get lost in history never to be found again. The world has changed profoundly. A weird feeling was created by observing outside.


It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

Monday, February 20, 2017

Peppertree in the rain

branches move out of the way to let the water flow. Like dancing to music in your mind. The times in life when reality seems unbearable. The moments with the most possibility.

  It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96