The tongue gets tied and the brain can't remember that is what happens.  There would be a time when it wouldn't be the case.  How did it happen their lives became entangled.  This was going to run it's course.  She would have to confront her fears.  She was definitely scared.  She would have to speak her fear.  She was afraid, it was vague but pervasive.  Without knowing what she was afraid of it could control this situation.  Fear couldn't be in control this was divine.  What was scaring her aside from history.  What was scaring her aside from all that had happened that led up to this moment. All the circumstances that made her the person she became.  The fear of all those bad endings.  The confusion.  The feeling she didn't deserve goodness.  The fear she would be broken.  The fear this was a primrose path.  The fear her sin's weren't forgiven.  She knew she couldn't endure what she deserved.

It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96