When people live in an all consuming fantasy reality the sealed edges that contains their reality aren't visible. The conversation can't be had until the fantasy dweller realizes they are in fact sealed off.  Their wishful thinking doesn't transcend the reality of nonfantasyland dwellers. Manufactured complicated maneuvering translating to reality is...?

's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

The popular ideology if it looks perfect, it is perfect. No worries, no cares. This popular belief makes the inverse true without question. If it looks bad, it is bad.  The real challenge is exposing the deception.


It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

The unusual correlation between calamity and miracles

Over several months this is the third time I've fallen.  I was getting ready to BBQ I went to check if the coals were ready.  I began falling before I reached the hot BBQ.  I put my hand out to push it away.  Thankfully it fell forward and the only place I was burned was where my hand came in contact with the outer edge.
Adding up three falls, my life has changed.


It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

It's time for communication to re-include the/a spiritual element missing long enough. The art of talking, speaking, the word.  Every topic being turned into the agitator cycle on the washing machine.  Getting people sudsed up and frothy.  People have fallen out of the habit of conversing, exchanging ideas, coming clean.  The ridiculous point of views being expressed as if they are genuine.  People being paid to push a message, on people that certainly know better, but aren't in the position to make it stop. The level of sincerity replaced with grammatical degree, repeated like an echo in a hollow space.


It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

Repulse

Her arms pulled me near. The fat warm and soft like an old woman is allowed to be. If she ends up that way there's a space for women like that. Especially if she is nice and pleasant company.  Being drawn in is met with being pushed away.  The required space outside the boundary of skin.  I knew her by what people said about her when she wasn't around.  She was helpful and charitable to me if three encounters can sum up a person's character.


It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

Catholic clergy abuse ... church problems are people problems

https://www.westernmagazine.com.au/story/5925347/cardinal-george-pell-heckled-at-court/?cs=9397

"We want to see him fry in hell forever.

     I heard the guy say this on the news just now. It startled me and got me thinking.  He wants a window seat.  A perch.  It sounded common and familair, but in a new sense.  I could see how everyday conversation it sounded.  The conclusion drawn by persons unlearned in struggling.  A romantized view of pain, a childish concept of forever.


It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96

I haven't had much to add here because too many variables made my thoughts confused. Now I have a course, a path to follow. This is a beginning in a sense of something new for me.
Over the past six months I've been dealing with health issues. I'm starting a treatment plan today.  I'm apprehensive, and hopeful.  My diagnosis was elusive.  Lots of tests but each came back saying I was healthy.  I kept feeling like I could get beyond my symptoms, until I couldn't. Finally a test showed a direction to investigate and anyhow here I am.  I need to get beyond the physical limits I'm dealing with. Also being frustrated by not falling into a standard category.  I felt like I was being pushed to communicate with people I didn't want to talk to.  As if somewhere there are written rules or at least that was how I was being approached.  I dodged as much as I could, only to be presented with more.  I'm expected to understand unwritten rules?  Okay, if I have nothing nice to say, it's best to say nothing.

It's not what you think it's what you believe.  Patricia '96